Bryan Gubatan

Sitting here and thinking back as to how you have made my life so much better, I could never begin to tell you what your love means to me. You have shown me countless times how you care and how you believe in me, how you have given me the strength to give up something that has had a hold of my life for a very long time, without you I don't think I could be following my dreams, much less having someone like you standing beside me.

I know I tell you all the time how amazing you are. There is nothing I believe you can't do. The way you make me feel is like nothing I've ever felt before. I know I'm a very impatient person and I'm trying like hell to do the right thing, but the more time I spend with you and the more time we talk and do things together makes me realize that this is our life's plan, this is how our path of forever is suppose to happen, and sometimes I know it's hard for us to deal with but in the end, we'll be stronger and able to handle just about anything that comes our way ... we got through the hard part, Mahal, now all we have is the downhill side.

You have brought out a part in me that I put away a long time ago and thought I'd never be able to find again. You make everything so simple and easy for me to let go and with you in my life I don't need to hide that part of me anymore. What you make me feel for you is nothing short of the ultimate happiness. You are in my thoughts, my dreams, my desires, but most of all my heart! Thank you for being so patient with me, for loving me.......

I love you now and always, today, tomorrow, and forever!


Mharj ♥

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SINGLE But Happy

It's been a year now since my last breakup, and I haven't accepted a single drink from a man, nor have I responded to anyone asking me out. That's a new record for me.

If it were a couple years back, I probably would've been tearing my eyebrows out by now, wondering what the hell was wrong with me. I'm out of cheese! God help me!

I'm single because:

• I still have streak relationship of dependence.This was extremely hard to admit, let alone blog about, but I'm sure that a lot of women (and men) can relate to this. Looking back, I depended almost entirely on the relationship - and my partner - for my overall happiness. I blogged about it briefly, so to make a long story short, you can never be fully prepared to enter a loving and stable relationship without being able to create your own happiness, without the help of anyone else.
• I depend on my partner on self-validation. Here we go again: dependence. If that word shows up quite often in your daily relationship reflections or assessments, you probably need more time to be by yourself. Sometimes it's hugely apparent, sometimes it comes in the form of leading questions or even deception, but when you find yourself seeking approval from your partner, asking him/her constantly if he/she loves you - as I did - then you're probably not ready to be in a relationship.
• I'm busy. A relationship is hard work. It requires a kind of commitment not everyone fully understands. Of course you can be busy and be in a successful relationship, but at this point in my life where I'm busy trying to make something of myself before I turn 30 (which is in a mere three years), busy moving from one place to the next, busy trying to find my place in this world (quite literally), I can't afford the kind of commitment a long, lasting relationship requires. To me, a relationship right now, dare I say it, isn't just a liability - it's a distraction.
• I don't appreciate myself fully just yet. I think the most important thing about establishing a lifelong relationship isn't just trust in each other, as most relationship experts would argue; it's trust in yourself. I don't completely trust myself just yet. I'm not complete, for lack of a better term, because I'm in the middle of filling in the holes in my life that no man could ever fill... oh God, that sounded so wrong! But before I distract you even further with unintentional innuendos, I will not be able to fully appreciate and trust my partner - which is what every partner deserves - until I'm able to fully appreciate and trust myself. And that won't happen until I'm able to achieve everything that I need to achieve, and want to achieve.
• I realized that there's a shitload of time for that, and that i can be patient.I am patient. when I'm still working in Dubai, I met successful 40-something women who got married in their late thirties. In fact, one of them just gave birth (yes, in her forties), and another one just got engaged. And they were genuinely happy. I asked them what their secret was, and they all said "overcome your fear of time." Use your twenties idealistic and focus on fulfilling your dreams and building a career, no matter how long it takes. And once you've established yourself, don't settle with a husband just yet! Rather, enjoy the career and name you just made for yourself - know what it's like to buy your own house, your own car, pay off your own debts, etc. Once you've truly, utterly enjoyed yourself and your successes, more often than not, a man (or woman) who's just as equally successful and fulfilled, will come into your life. If not, if you're meant to be single for the rest of your life, at least you know how fulfilling it can still be.

I guess, in the end, it's all about finding ways to be settled, not with someone, but with yourself. Because truly, you're the only person who can make you feel settled.

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE

God put people in your life for a reason Some for a while and some for a season But with you I know it’s for a lifetime Because your friendship and love is hard to find You never judge or look down on me And you see things in me I would never see And that’s the way a friendship is suppose to be I say my prayers and thank him for you Because without you I don’t know what I’d do I know you be tired and you have your own life But you’re still there for me without malice or strife You’re my strength when I can’t take it anymore all I have to do is knock on your door You’ll stop whatever your doing to see about me And what you some people would charge a fee I want to let you know That I really appreciate you And to let you know that I love you too But most of all it’s just my way of saying THANK YOU

WHY ;'(

....
I remember the old days
I remember the good days fill with memories of you and me
The days we kissed
The days we hugged
The days we did everything together
It was all good so lovely as you can see

We were meant to be, just you and me
Until she came into the picture
She took you away
and left me all by myself in my lonely dark corner
I was crushed into pieces

And now as i sit and think to myself of the memories of you and me
It hurts deep within my heart
I remember when you would always say "I love you" and meant it
It gave my heart joy

But it was all a fake lie
because
You left me for her

I'm scred to lose you ;'(

Sitting here thinking about you
Wondering if I make you happy
Hoping with all my might
That you feel the same way about me
I want to be the reason why
That smile comes to your face
I want to feel you near me
Hold me tight in your embrace
I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought that falling in love
Could turn out to be so tough...
And yes I get the butterflies when I see you
And yes knowing you'll be close makes me excited
But I never realized that loving you so much
Could ever make me want to doubt it..
Now instead of worrying
About finding someone I could love
I worry that I wont suffice
That I wont be enough
The thought of losing you
Makes me want to break down
How can I be so happy and yet
Doubt if you'll always be around
These lines aren't getting easier
Expressing them is hard enough
And I don't want you ever thinking
That I'm second guessing your love
I just feel that any second now
It will all come falling apart
Cause how can something be so good
Without the price of a broken heart
Baby, I'm just scared
That your eyes will wonder away
That you will realize
That you could do better any day..
So I sit here and write again
Another poem, another rhyme
Every word that appears in the end
Just another wish that you'd stay mine
Sitting here wondering
If you even notice the difference
The way I used to be so carefree
Now I walk around self-conscious
Every woman that you smile to
Becomes a potential threat
Makes me question if its true love
Or will you someday forget
Ain't it funny how you fall in love
Expecting everything to be just right
Then you bump into the possibility
That you might one day lose this fight..
And I'm so scared of losing
So scared of you leaving me
So scared that if you leave
I wont be able to breathe.....

i want to be near you....

Dear Baby,

I know you will never read this, but I want everyone to know that I love you with all my heart and all my soul. You make me feel like I can fly. I'm in love with you even though I am thousands of miles away from you; I am forever by your side.

You have imperfections just like everyone else, but that is why I love you. You make me laugh; you make me cry tears of joy. I truly could not live my life without having you to talk to and to confide in. You know more about me than anyone, you know my thoughts, and you know my heart inside and out. You have a way of making my heart skip a beat, and I want you and the whole world to know, that I love you, Baby, and I will be forever yours. Thank you for showing me what kind of love all women deserve.

Love always,
marj

My Dearest Sassy,


I am giving you the confidence you need. I am standing by your side in support and cheering you on, critical when required and congratulating when deserved, loyal every second of your life. Forget about whether you will be a source of inspiration for others, or one of ridicule and pity, for I deeply believe that you have the capacity to exceed your own expectations with determination, independent of what anyone else had expected of you. Pray to God for good health and other things that are not in your control but are destined to go as written. Even if life does not turn out as expected, do not consider that as proof that life should not be led your way, because as of today you know no other way of leading your life than in the search of greater, deeper, treasured knowledge, wisdom and meaning. Go out there, sassy, your life has just started. Go out there, conquer your fears, and explore the world! With that, I wish you all the very best, with truckloads of luck.

Your truest friend, your only lifelong companion and your strength through thick and thin,

love and hugs,

Sassy

Heart Broken

I have been heart broken. You can't breathe, your eyes are pouring a thousand tears a second and you can't foresee going on with love because you never want to feel this way again. But then you have to look in the mirror and say 'Shut up, eat some ice cream, be by yourself for a while and think about who you are and who you want to be - then, go out and find someone compatible.' A broken heart feels like the worst thing in the whole world, but it really helps you decide what you want and don't want. You learn a lot from a broken heart.

Of course you're gonna get your heart broken. And it isn't just gonna happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle the pain even better the next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you to do it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then, one day, someone will come along, and it will all pay off, and no one will ever break your heart again.

WALANG SAYANG

WALANG SAYANG

Siya na ba ang bago mO

Siya na ba ngayon ang kapalit ko
Mukhang okay naman siya
Nabigla ako sa’yo
‘Di ko akalain
Na siya ang tipo mo

Ano naman ang ugali niya
O talaga, ‘di nga?
Nagbibiro ka ba?
Maniwala ‘ko sa’yo!
Ano ba talaga?
Nagkamali ba ako o
Nagbago ka na nga?

Chorus:
Walang sayang na luha
Walang sayang na tawa
Noong tayo pa,
Walang sayang na ligaya
‘Di ako nagsisi sa ating nakaraan
Walang sayang, maniwala ka

Heto na
Ang hanap mo
Mukhang nakita mo na
Ang para sa iyo
Sa wakas ay dumating din
Pinakahihintay mo
Mangyayari ba sa akin
Ang nangyari na sa’yo

Walang sayang na luha
Walang sayang na tawa
Noong tayo pa
Walang sayang na ligaya
‘Di ako nagsisi sa ating nakaraan
Walang sayang, maniwala ka

Walang sayang na luha
Walang sayang na tawa
Noong tayo pa,
Walang sayang na ligaya
‘Di ako nagsisi sa ating nakaraan
Walang sayang, maniwala ka

‘Di ako nagsisi sa ating nakaraan
Walang sayang, maniwala ka
Walang sayang
Maniwala ka

IN THE NEXT INTERSECTION

IN THE NEXT INTERSECTION

In disguise and unknown by you, I wish to be by your side.
Silently accompanying you as you gaze upon the sky.
Riding on a Bicycle, moving onwards.
At a certain intersection, I’d be lovingly waiting for you.
Moving forward, I’ll not look back anymore,
Your smiling face in my memory, is slowly striking at my keyboards.
I cannot bear to let you be lonely
I am the one who’ll be your confidante and my heart is patiently waiting for you.
I’m no longer scrambling to hide my feelings, I’m not going to worry about the consequence, and assume that there would be a future for us.
What would you say? I’ve always wanted to tell you my feelings, to stop happiness from slipping away.
At the next intersection, you will see love, and gain a beautiful smile.
Love turns around the corner, and whom did you meet? Does it have anything to do with the beauty of love?
The street after love has turned a corner, can I accompany you there
Love turns around the corner, and whom did you meet? Is she able to prevent you from crying?
Perhaps starting from strangers we can get to know each other, let me be your girl.
I won’t let your tears fall because of love.
Now and forever, you will be my perfection.

....................i know him so well..........

_Sometimes, things went better if you'll just let them go..' you need to accept the fact that even you want them to stay.. they just cant., coz they're not meant to be in your life.. things will go on the right time at the right place..' if not now,, jus wait and you will see.,.Life has its own wonderful way of makin' things better.. if pain starts to go down, then just be strong to let go..,everything happen for its own reason.,_
I have wrote all of these while knowing that this will worth nothing to you., things would't change by this stupid writings i have made., but still, all of these are for you.., your name is behind every word i have wrote in this., each of its leters spells your memory out..,
Now,, im here, finding out words to say goodbye., unlocking those memories that was once gave me a smile., I know i can let you go., i can still find a right person who will care for me the way i have loved you., someday i can proudly say t the whole world that i am now OVER YOU.,
time will come., and i will finish pickin up this broken pieces of my heart that you have left inside me..' tears will no longer fall from my eyes.,, i know i made a right decission., to GIVE YOU UP.. promise me,, you'll love him with all of your heart., make him smile,, like the way you did to me.,
i will now walk on a different path., but if someday our roads meet again., you'll see a better me., you'll see a smile glowing in my face., thank yo for making me happy even just for a while., i promise i will be happy,, i will smile AT THE RIGHT TIME..

RUNAWAY SOUL

ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU MADE ME CRY., ITS ABOUT HOW YOU'VE CHANGED MY LIFE., I REALLY DOES'NT CARE IF IT DIDNT LAST.,COZ I KNOW THERE'S A REASON BEHIND EVERY "WHY?"..""I HAVE FOUND THE TRUE ESSENCE OF LIFE., A LIFE THAT IS SO MEANINGFUL BECAUSE OF YOU""THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.,I KNOW IT HURT ME A LOT., I KNOW IT MADE ME CRY FOR A LONG TIME., BUT I FINALLY REALIZED THAT SOMETIMES I NEED TO FREE THINGS TO BE ABLE TO SEE D OTHER SIDE OF LIFE..,NOW., ITS ALL GONE.,MY SOUL HAVE FINALLY RUNAWAY FROM TEARS., MY HEART FINALLY FOUND THE COURAGE., THE COURAGE TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT IM NOW OVER YOU!! I KNOW SOMEDAY EVERYTHING WILL FIND ITS WAY., EVERY SINGLE THING WILL FINALLY BE OKAY.,THIS SOUL IS FINALLY OVER YOU., BUT GIVE ME ONE LAST CHANCE TO SAY MY FAREWELL,,. COZ THIS SIMPLE GOODBYE IS MY SIMPLE WAY OF TELLING "THANK YOU",,.ALL OF THESE ARE FOR YOU..

THIS MAY BE THE END OF EVERYTHINGEVERY TEAR FROM MY EYES ARE DRYING
PAIN FINALLY MEETS THE END
TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO LET MY HEART MENDILL BE OFF THE OTHER WAYSO I CAN FREE MY SELFI'LL BE WAITING FOR ANOTHER CHANCEWAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO WILL SHARE HER DAYSI SAW THE PAST WAVING GOOBYESIVE SEEN MYSELF FREE.,SMILING AT SOMETIMES.,NOW I HAVE NO REASONS TO STAY AND WAIT
I'LL NOW LEAVE EVERYTHINGTO THE HANDS OF FATE.,SOMEDAY., I'LL BE BACK WITH SMILESSMILES THAT SOMEHOW FADED BY TIME.,THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHINGIT LEADS ME TO THE ENDTO THE END OF EMPTYNESS..,TO THE END OF BEING BROKEN..

Just one prayer up above

Once I’ve had a dream. A dream that someday I’d find real happiness and I wish it is just beyond my reach. Happiness that I could really touch and feel for as long as I can remember. I have been covered up by frustrations and fears. Suddenly I just realized that I’m behind bars of unending tears. All my life there seem to be a part missing. I tried to find out and I kept on searching. I looked around and I saw Cross. I stopped and think for a while and heard a whisper, soft and true. Hang on and never lose hope, for someone out there is just waiting for you and that someone I just I didn’t know was God, who’ve been there with me all the time. I opened my eyes and prayed in tears “Oh God, please help me and forgive the sins I’ve made. I got so lost in your trials, but my faith in you never fades”. Suddenly, I felt a cold air, the touch of His love and now I do realize that happiness is just beyond my reach, just one prayer up above.

Gagawin para sayo

Ito'y buong puso kong isinulat para sayo
sa kabila ng masakit na katotohanan na kahit kailan ay hindi mo malalaman na ikaw ang siyang tinutukoy ng liham kong ito.
Alam mo ba ,,,
kahit hindi ka magsalita,
buo na araw ko na nasa tabi lang kita.
sana mabangit mo kahit minsan,
na naging masaya ka dahil ako ang iyong kasama .

Handa akong ipagsigawan sa buong mundo
ang tunay na nararamdaman sayo ....
at alam kong kahit ikaw ay nasa tabi ko pa
hindi mo rin maririnig ang tibok ng puso ko,
ang puso kong nanghihina kasisigaw ng pangalan mo ....

Sa kabila ng kirot at sakit dito sa puso ko
na dulot ng labis kong pagmamahal sayo
ay ikaw pa rin magpa-hanggang ngayon
ang dahilam kung bakit tumitibok pa ito .....

pagmasdan mo ang mga luha ko
para maunawaan mo ang laman ng aking puso
at nang maramdaman mo ang pag-ibig ko sayo
na nakakubli sa bawat patak nito...

Hindi ko magawang ilihim ang pananabik sayo
ang maging bahagi sa bawat daang nilalakbay mo,
ayaw kong sundan ang mga yapak na tinahak mo,
ngunit bakit bakit ganito??
hindi ko maihakbang ang mga paa ko papalayo sayo...

Wala na akong lakas pa
hindi ko na maitago ang luha sa aking mga mata
at hindi ko na rin kayang pigilan pa ...
ang mga ngiting dahan dahan nang nawawala.....

hindi ko hihilingin na ibsan mo ang aking kalungkutan,
bigyan mo lang ako ng kaunting pag-asa
na balang araw ay makakalimutan din kita.
Na isang araw,mawawalaka na rin sa isip ko
at tuluyan na maglalaho sa loob ng puso ko......

sana.....
maintindihan nitong aking isipan,
na kahit kailanman ay hindi mo magagawang tandaan,
ang mahahalagang bagay na hindi ko kayang kalimutan....

at sana.......
matanggap nitong aking puso,
ang katotohanan na mas magiging masaya ka
kung wala ako sa buhay mo ......

i love ds song

The Love I Found In You



You are the air I need to breathe
The river of life inside of me
You are the half that made me whole
You are the anchor of my soul

You are strong when I am weak
You are the words when I can't speak
You never fail to see me through
That's the love I found in you

You are my shelter from the storm
You are the road that leads me home
and baby with you here face to face
Oh I know I've found my place

and you are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
that's the love I found in you


and once in every life
you find the one that's right
and when you say forever it's true
That's the love I found in you

You are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
That's the love I found in you

That's the love, love I found in you.

:)

So It’s You Lyrics

We smiled and that's how it all started,

And you came right in timeWhen I needed someone And we said hello,

Suddenly my heart was beating fast.

CHORUS:

So it's you I've been waiting for so long,

So it's you,

where were you all along?

Very special moments, these will always be with me,

We are here, you and I, we belong.

We touched and we felt more beautiful,

And two hands reachin' out Filled with so much longing,

It felt good inside,There is no denying I'm in love.

CHORUS:

So it's you I've been waiting for so long,

So it's you, where were you all along?

Very special moments, these will always be with me,

We are here, you and I, we belong

So it's you I've been waiting for so long,

So it's you, where were you all along?

Very special moments, these will always be with me,

We are here, you and I, we belong

We are here, you and I, we belong