I'm scred to lose you ;'(

Sitting here thinking about you
Wondering if I make you happy
Hoping with all my might
That you feel the same way about me
I want to be the reason why
That smile comes to your face
I want to feel you near me
Hold me tight in your embrace
I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought that falling in love
Could turn out to be so tough...
And yes I get the butterflies when I see you
And yes knowing you'll be close makes me excited
But I never realized that loving you so much
Could ever make me want to doubt it..
Now instead of worrying
About finding someone I could love
I worry that I wont suffice
That I wont be enough
The thought of losing you
Makes me want to break down
How can I be so happy and yet
Doubt if you'll always be around
These lines aren't getting easier
Expressing them is hard enough
And I don't want you ever thinking
That I'm second guessing your love
I just feel that any second now
It will all come falling apart
Cause how can something be so good
Without the price of a broken heart
Baby, I'm just scared
That your eyes will wonder away
That you will realize
That you could do better any day..
So I sit here and write again
Another poem, another rhyme
Every word that appears in the end
Just another wish that you'd stay mine
Sitting here wondering
If you even notice the difference
The way I used to be so carefree
Now I walk around self-conscious
Every woman that you smile to
Becomes a potential threat
Makes me question if its true love
Or will you someday forget
Ain't it funny how you fall in love
Expecting everything to be just right
Then you bump into the possibility
That you might one day lose this fight..
And I'm so scared of losing
So scared of you leaving me
So scared that if you leave
I wont be able to breathe.....

i want to be near you....

Dear Baby,

I know you will never read this, but I want everyone to know that I love you with all my heart and all my soul. You make me feel like I can fly. I'm in love with you even though I am thousands of miles away from you; I am forever by your side.

You have imperfections just like everyone else, but that is why I love you. You make me laugh; you make me cry tears of joy. I truly could not live my life without having you to talk to and to confide in. You know more about me than anyone, you know my thoughts, and you know my heart inside and out. You have a way of making my heart skip a beat, and I want you and the whole world to know, that I love you, Baby, and I will be forever yours. Thank you for showing me what kind of love all women deserve.

Love always,
marj